Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Day 3

Today I updated my blog template.  Argyle, yay!  I started liking argyle when I was 16, but it wasn’t until 2 years ago that I was finally comfortable with admitting that I enjoy argyle patters… and then it became popular again and I went back to not wanting to admit that I like the design.  But here I am… I love argyle and I don’t care who knows it!

 

I started the deployment calendar with my son.  We had fun.  I also started looking at rentals today and it made me very discouraged.  All the good places I saw a month ago are gone (and for good reason), but I didn’t have money until now… tomorrow morning I am going to go in and get a list of current rentals and then try to look at as many as I can within my price range.  My son wants us to rent a house, but I don’t know if that will be possible anymore.  I am hopeful.

 

I can’t stay up any longer.  My head hurts and I just want to cry.  Right now I am in the “I can’t believe he’s really gone” mode.  It feels like that’s the wrong mind set… won’t that make the realization of his absence that much more difficult?

2 comments:

laura0531 said...

It's OK to have rough days. It's not healthy to never let yourself just be upset. I just wouldn't make a habit of it ;) I hope you have better luck this time finding a great place! Just don't give up hope. If you can't find something right this second, try again in a few weeks. Have you tried going to the housing website for whatever post/base you live near? If there is one close by, they should be able to provide you with a list of rentals that they've checked out personally (so you know they won't rip you off because you are a military family). Actually, I think you can check AHRN.com or just google AHRN. That's who the Army uses for off post housing listings. Anyway, I hope today went better for you! <3 Laura H

Anonymous said...

Everyone has to adjust differently to that first, "he's really gone" moment. It usually takes me a week or so before it feels like more than just a field exercise or training. Then I break down about a week after that. Often you will find yourself doing ok and then BAM, it hits. Is this your first deployment? It is different every time for me. Unfortunately, we've done this SO many times, it is kind of weird to imagine him home. But then he comes home and I don't know how I went a whole year without him. You will survive and good luck on your house search.