Sunday, August 22, 2010
So, I am faced with a decision. In the grand scheme of things it's probably not that big of a decision... but right now it seems pretty big. In an attempt to figure out how to make this decision easily, I decided to Google "how to make decisions" and this is what I came up with:
How to Make Decisions
I love this! All you need is a pencil and paper and you too can make a hard decision seem easy. Ironically enough, the difficulty level is noted as "Moderate."
So, I'll follow the steps here and see where it leads me.
(after a short break...)
Well, I realize that I am definitely leaning more towards one decision than the other. At the beginning of the year I was faced with three options. My first choice did not work out so well and now I am left with two alternatives. The second choice may not be my favorite, for various reasons, but it is probably the better choice (and probably should have been my first choice). I feel like I'm running away from the best alternative. Am I afraid? What am I afraid of?
Why does the best choice feel so...
I cannot even begin to describe what I am feeling. So hesitant. I guess I just like to know what to expect and I'm afraid of the unknown. At least with the other choice I know what to expect, even if it's not perfect... and with the best choice I don't know what all to expect.
Thank you to my friend who reminded me that sometimes you have to stop questioning. I want to know all the possibilities, all the answers, and in life that is just not possible. There are too many variables, too many unknowns. And so, I am going to make my move and hope for the best & prepare for the worst.
I am not 100% sure, but I think I have made up my mind.
Now to sleep. My decision doesn't have to be made tonight, and whatever I choose is not permanent. That makes me feel better.