I feel so unhappy right now. Depressed. It's probably normal. I need to go run. I need to go take pictures. I need to take my son somewhere to have fun. The weather has been crazy so I've been using that as an excuse, but I guess really I've just been wallowing. And I want to keep wallowing for a little while longer... I need to cry. It will come. Among all the big changes there are also other things I need to deal with... "normal" things just in the sense that I would have had to deal with them even without all the changes.
Does this jumble of words mean anything?
I miss you. I miss your eyes. I miss your smile. I miss your laugh. I miss you teasing me. I miss you holding me.
I feel like I've lost a lot of my security... and I know that my son is feeling the same way. I need to pull myself together to help him feel more secure. Time for a jog. But this time I need to start slow.