Sunday, June 6, 2010

Dreams

Part One
Funny story.  Not funny like "haha" but funny like "strange."

One of my friends has the habit of asking question as her statuses on Facebook; today she asked about dreams.  "What is your dream(what you want most out of life)?" For the last year I've been reevaluating my goals, my dreams, my motivation in life... but when I decided to respond to her question, my answer came, almost effortlessly.

It's funny, I was just reminded of a philosophy that you can only find something once you stop looking... and maybe that's what happened.  I'm happy.  I rediscovered my dream.  Cyclically, I tend to revisit my dream every few years in order to ensure that what I wanted a few years before it what I still want out of life... I can't see this one changing.

Leonardo da Vinci said "As a well-spent day brings happy sleep, so life well used brings happy death." My grandfather passed this January and it was beautiful.  When my end comes, I want to be able to say that I lived and know that I did what I could do with what I was given, no regrets.  I do not want to hold back, afraid to 'do' in fear of failure.

The last sentence I added just now, developing the thought a little.  It's interesting, fear of failure has always been my enemy.  Growing up I was terrified of failing and letting someone down... but honestly, I have only to answer to myself.

What's your dream?

Part Two
Every once in a while I'll have a dream about a friend, a family member, a co-worker-someone I have a deep connection with... and when I wake up I will feel a sense of urgency to make sure that the person in my dream is alright.  It seems every time I've had a dream like that something has been going on in that person's life.  Maybe it's some sort of spiritual connection, maybe it's just the inner workings of my sleeping mind evaluating indicators that my waking mind cannot process, but it's uncanny.

I've also experienced shared or "mutual dreams" which is weird, mostly because it's nearly unexplainable except as coincidence... and the other explanations?  Those get a little weird for me.

And then there was the dream the night this happened....



...that night gives me goosebumps.

Ever had a strange, true-to-life dream?

2 comments:

Morningstar said...

I used to call my "mutual" dream experiences- dream walking.

So- in honor of the awful dream that you had involving me, I have taken steps to take better care of myself. 1. I went to work with one simple intention of returning all of my phone calls- and not beating myself up for other work that I felt needed to be done. 2. I took my lunch break and did not work on my lunch break. 3. I left work on time today.

Thank you for caring and asking me if I was doing okay. Often times people forget to ask the helper. Having you ask me, reminded me that I have to take better care of myself. Thanks!

Nikky Williamson said...

You are very welcome and I'm glad to hear you had a good "you" day (aside from the stupid candidate messages).